Today I had to give the keys of my home back to my landlord. I’m writing this post now from my mothers’ address where I am living for a couple of weeks since last weekend, until I move to Michelle. So, another chapter has been closed.

I have to say that it wasn’t all that easy. Last week it was the last days of my old address and it wasn’t all that easy for me, knowing that I had to leave my home and my belongings after living there for three years. The last evening and night were not much fun, a lot of things were sold already but still, even though it was already a bit more empty, it still looked like my home. I turned off the television that night with an uneasy feeling and turned my television off while saying something like ‘Well, this is the last time that I turn you off’, to give an idea of how I felt myself. Of course it is all just materialistic but still, these were ‘my’ things that I used for (sometimes many) years. I didn’t sleep good that night either, knowing it would be the last night in ‘my’ bed, in ‘my’ home.

The rest of my stuff that I still had was either sold or thrown away the day after. The date to give my keys back was scheduled for today, the 18th of September, so the place had to be emptied. The only thing I took with me to my mother (and therefore take with me to Michelle) will be my clothes (and not even all, really a lot of clothes were given away to some charity thing), personal belongings like pictures and things that I have inherited from my father, grandpa and grandma and such, and the most important papers. The rest is either sold or brought away to the dump.

My home was completely empty after that Saturday and it did not feel like my home where I lived several years anymore but it felt more like the place where I entered 3 years ago without having any feelings for it at that time. I thought to myself that it was a lot better since now at least I didn’t feel really sad anymore.

Ok, so today was the day that I had to give my keys back to the landlord today and said goodbye to my neighbors also. Again things weren’t so easy for me when this all happened, I didn’t really expect it since I had little feelings with this place when I closed the door last Saturday but yeah, still it was a bit hard because, for example, I do not know if I will ever get back in that street or will see my neighbors again. I promised them to send them a card from the islands and, who knows, I might see them somewhere someday again.

Right, like said, we closed another chapter, one of many in this period of time.